I TALKED TO NICK...really talked to him, full sentences and all!! ABOUT GAMES!!! I tell ya, I nearly fucking died....I brought a computer game for him and hadn't had a chance to give it to him yet. Two nights in a row he told me he'd "come back." One night it was "I'll be right back," amd the next night it was "in an hour." Finally, the third night, I got my chance. Jeanine said his face lit up like a kid in a candy store when he saw what was in the bag I gave him. I just saw him digging through the bag and rip the game out to look at the back, and he started asking me about it. He said, (and this damn near killed me) "Oh cool, how did you get this?" Like he can't. He also said he didn't have the Sims. Which makes no sense. But I'm going to bring him a copy of the Sims now, no question. He was all excited, asking what the game was like and stuff, it was amazing...so we talked about the game, and I told him I'd bring him more games.

After we'd talked about the game, he pointed to my camera, asked if I wanted a pic, of course I said yes, and after I handed my camera to J he HUGGED ME!!! He had his arm around my shoulders really tight for the picture so my arm was right against his side, but I HAD to put my arm around. I just keep wondering how awkward me trying to get my arm out from between us looked. I still can't believe it really happened. I spoke geek speek to Nick. Oh wow. Or at least, Nick's version of geek speek, it was so cute, so clearly still Nicky.

         

I got a bunch of pictures of him, and his autograph twice, once when we talked about games, and once more later last night. And I think I took a picture of his butt yesterday with J's camera. Not quite sure, I REALLY shake when Nick shows up, it's awful. Jeanine said she could see me shaking when I was taking the picture of her and Nick (well, the first time, by the 2nd time, it was, what, the 5th time or so I'd seen him in person, so I was slightly more functional). How embarassing, right, that probably means Nick could tell I was shaking when his arm was around me, if he didn't just see it when I took the pic.(Nick, smelled great too, btw, and omg, did I mention yet how soft Nick is??! I've been calling him "warm and fuzzy." I dunno how else to explain it. Just very comfortable and warm.

I also think I may have called him Nicky. I'm not sure. :) I hope I didn't. I also am not entirely sure if I put a note in with the game. I wrote one, but I kept putting it in and taking it out, I can't remember if it ended up in or out at the end.

Kevin. (ANOTHER sharpie died on Kevin, I'd been drawing on my disposable camera (Nick started laughing when he saw my camera...I was bored and had been doodling, I'd drawn all over it. "Backstreet Cam!") and I kinda killed the pen. He was supposed to be coming out when I left this morning, I figured I didn't need to see him one more time, I turn to good and am developing a major Kevin problem. :) Seriously. I ended up getting 3 pictures with him (and don't get me wrong...he does this thing with his hand where he rubs your back....oh my. But still nothing like Nick, it's like Kevin's all hands, and Nick's all arms? Saw Kev aton, actually talked to him a little bit last night when they came back from recording, but I just...melt. My voice goes up about 3 octaves, I start talking all soft, he's just so beautiful. And ya know, I saw a little of TRL yesterday (gonna watch it later, I DID see the video tho, I like!), and Kevin on camera just doesn't do it. His eyes -- even when he's clearly tired -- gorgeous.

       

Brian...speedy gonzalez. Nobody's gotten a picture with Brian all week, unless you count what I took. See, Jeanine was the only one to get an autograph yesterday. He went running out when they were going to the studio, and J had told me to give her a push when we saw Brian. So, I saw >Brian, I saw empty space, I saw Janine...I pushed her into empty space...as Brian ran into said empty space (he moves far too quickly!). She didn't fall, or quite hit him, but he saw and started laughing, and signed her picture. I got a picture of him handing it back to her.

Howie....I feel bad. I'd gotten his autograph the other night, but last night, I guess it was right after we'd seen Nick, J and I were sitting playing cards, when out walks Howie. There are probably 6 of us sitting in the lobby, we're all pretty dead tired, and we all just kinda wave...I think he said "hi girls," or something like that, but none of us felt like getting up. I was having a pretty hard time playing cards even, I'd gotten a major case of the giggles for some reason (and this was BEFORE we saw Nick), and just couldn't move.